WIP Wednesday on a Thursday!
Feb. 19th, 2026 11:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kittkestraAlas, still no real progress to report.
However, I at least felt *excited* to write today! Unfortunately that excitement came while I was at work, did not really last after getting home, and also still has not come along with much inspiration to work on any particular project. Even so, it's better than nothing, and better than I've felt for about a month, now.
I think a lot of what I'm excited for is more... the desire to be excited. I want the overwhelming enthusiasm and inspiration that seemed to come easily when I was younger. The ideas that really did seem to come from an endless supply, and enthusiasm that meant those ideas occupied my thoughts nearly constantly. Sometimes it was only a burst of a day or two, sometimes it was the same story for months or even into years. It's been about... 10-15 years now since I last really remember having that sort of "live, breathe, sleep the story" feeling, and I still long for it. At this point, I think it's perhaps something I've outgrown, rather than simply an ebb in my creativity.
There's a pull to go back to one of my fanfics, one that was once a source of that exact feeling a long time ago. There's also a pull to try to find that sort of obsession for an original work.
Even if I can't capture that kind of excitement, just the desire to feel that way is a welcome change from the last several weeks, where I've struggled to even care about writing. I haven't turned it into actual writing yet, but I hope that I'm able to before too long.
(Sadly, in addition to recovering from emergency surgery, I'm also dealing with a fairly nasty lingering cold. I already overdid it a few times and I think set the recovery back a bit; I'm trying to truly take it easy for a little while longer, because that seems to be the thing that's helped the most... even when I feel like I'm wasting time.)
However, I at least felt *excited* to write today! Unfortunately that excitement came while I was at work, did not really last after getting home, and also still has not come along with much inspiration to work on any particular project. Even so, it's better than nothing, and better than I've felt for about a month, now.
I think a lot of what I'm excited for is more... the desire to be excited. I want the overwhelming enthusiasm and inspiration that seemed to come easily when I was younger. The ideas that really did seem to come from an endless supply, and enthusiasm that meant those ideas occupied my thoughts nearly constantly. Sometimes it was only a burst of a day or two, sometimes it was the same story for months or even into years. It's been about... 10-15 years now since I last really remember having that sort of "live, breathe, sleep the story" feeling, and I still long for it. At this point, I think it's perhaps something I've outgrown, rather than simply an ebb in my creativity.
There's a pull to go back to one of my fanfics, one that was once a source of that exact feeling a long time ago. There's also a pull to try to find that sort of obsession for an original work.
Even if I can't capture that kind of excitement, just the desire to feel that way is a welcome change from the last several weeks, where I've struggled to even care about writing. I haven't turned it into actual writing yet, but I hope that I'm able to before too long.
(Sadly, in addition to recovering from emergency surgery, I'm also dealing with a fairly nasty lingering cold. I already overdid it a few times and I think set the recovery back a bit; I'm trying to truly take it easy for a little while longer, because that seems to be the thing that's helped the most... even when I feel like I'm wasting time.)
